hello hello my humble blog that no one reads. i hope it stays this way. i dont like being at home. it makes me bored, then makes methink about things. so. again. this is another emotional blog. i dont know why i am emotional, i think i really have a reason to be. perhaps its the unknown that scares me. stuff that i dont know when you're not here. when i dont get told anything, i feel ignored. put aside until you need me. but this is probably just irrational. its probably not what exactly is going on and i really hope you dont visit my site again so you wont read this, because its better to see the happy nhi. havent i told myself to never bottle things up ? cant help it. anyway. i have already said more than i should.

bye `the ignored

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i realised, im going back to this old broken down thing. having a great and wonderful blog isnt all that its made to be. i suppose i need a place to type, to spill, and to escape the harsh reality that consumes us all ..

my head hurts. i feel as if my ability to make out a point is dieing. today i feel like saying :

LET IT GO !

but letting it go is a hard thing, i should know .. i hate writing sad entries like this, it makes me depressed, but my head hurts, i need to just release it.

dont assume that i dont care. coz fuck to be honest i dont , at least im tryingnot to , but as i am only human, all i can do is actually give a fuck. god look, im swearing now ! ARGH. there is nothing really that i want more than some peace, some time to find my head, keep sane and aviod being completely out of it. i mean there alot of things i dont care about. and some things, fuck if i didnt care, perhaps i wont get headaches. i make no sense.

many sides of a story, shut the fuck up and listen.

nhi  is not good today, maybe some other day

`the annoyed

mood; crappy

ive come here coz i know noone reads it anymore.

i feel so upset, so down , so broken and so stoopid. someone save me ! the lesson learnt here is to never let nhi drown in her own thoughts. sounds emo , but i will not even think about killing myselfs. thats just pathetic. anyway. after this incident. really dont know what to think, has it just been one big lie ? i feel so stoopid . why didnt i listen to my head ? GOD. even as i come here to escape my own reality there are constant reminders of them here. someone save me from becoming insane. i am just so hurt, feeling so betrayed and they have noidea now. they will. iwill give them my piece of mind.

I JUST WANT ANSWERS, THE TRUTH, as cruel as it may be i dont care. perhaps i will get some closure. and i want a hug. just for the split second ill feel safe.

saying all this makes me feel pathetic. its not worth your tears nhi. get over it ! tehy are not worth your time . but why am i still so botthered by this.

GIVE ME MY ANSWERS AND LEAVE ME ALONE

that didnt make me feel any better,

from the hurt

LOL.

well, cinderella wanted to go to the ball to meet prince charming, but she had her periods, her fairy god mother told her you can go to the ball,but you have to be back before 12, and as she said it, she turned the pumpkin into a tampon, and said. if you come later than 12 the tampon turn back into a pumpkin. so she went, most beautiful girl there, met her prince charming, but she lost track of time. and got back after 12. she died because the tampon turned back into a pumpkin. while it was still in her ..

good humor =P there ya go